Today was the 3rd day of BVW show stuff. We woke up early in the morning and loaded into McConomy. It went much better than the last two days and I felt a lot better about it. Will Bosley is my angel. I really respect him as stage manager. It's another type of job I think I could do well or at least I'd like to try but that I know Randy would never trust me with, but I can't complain because Will is clearly the best choice for this job. Things really did run so smoothly today. Also people weren't getting on my bad side as much. I don't know if sleep is a factor. I don't think it is for me since I was plenty well rested yesterday that I don't think it was the cause of those problems, and I was still fuming mad when I woke up today. Maybe everyone else got some sleep and we're all getting along better today.

I stayed up late last night being very upset. I didn't want to wake up and come in today but I knew I had to and trying to come in late would only make things worse. When I woke up though, I was still pissed. I came in because it was my job. When we started doing things I just went into work mode where I focused on the job I was doing. I was ready to snap back into my mood if anyone said anything to me about it or said anything snappy to me or if the setup got to chaotic, but none of that happened. The more and more of the setup that went well the better I felt until the day ended up turning out pretty good. Order reigned supreme, the clouds parted, a beam of light shown though, and all was good. I'm sorry for anyone I was upset with yesterday as it seems we are over that for now. Nothing against individuals, but I'm going to stand by how I felt then because I believe it was with cause and I don't feel I should erase true history, but no one did anything with malice and it wasn't a long term hurt so my words are only meant as a record of what I said at that time when I felt that way.

Things did get so bad yesterday, though, that after a post about how I was tired of every thing I said ending up as an argument with someone telling me that my opinions were wrong, someone anonymously engaged me in an argument about how I felt on the comments section of the post. This only upset me further and caused me take down my website completely. It is back up now that I have made some code and policy changes regarding comments. Now I can set entries like that to not allow comments, I require you to use your real name and email to post a comment (you can set your email to anonymous so that only I see it). Of course I can't programatically enforce this but I get notified of comments and any comment I see without a real name or email address will get deleted.